“ HELLO MOSAIC”
Illustration by: Samuel Cortez
Lets start off by getting to know each other, Yeah? Awesome *wiggles with excitement* (if you knew me that makes sense) Well first things first I'm Jena and not a professional blogger by any means so please excuse any and all errors you come across. ( I REALLY appreciate it because trust me you will come across a lot, especially the spelling errors...Sorry guys)
This lack of perfection and error admitting is kind of what this whole thing is about. I, as I affectionately like to say have had a "Colorful Life" and that's just my clever G-rated way of saying that I have had my share of hurts and trauma. I used to wish these things never happened but now I know it was for you.... yes you!
Let me explain a bit more so I don't sound like a weirdo. *Disclaimer I am totally a werido, but the good kind!* Mexicana Mosaic is what I had called myself once in a venting session, You see I have depression (and if you do too it's ok...Promise) I used to ramble negativity to those closest to me, usually no good came from such sessions but this time something did. Rooted in this ramble was the idea I was broken... suprise suprise, broken just like a mosaic in pieces that life had left me in.
A mosaic is a creation made of broken pieces, and that is how I felt, merely broken a white washed Latina who couldn't even speak spanish, useless. However what grew from that low moment was my realization that yes, I was in fact in pieces but I was NOT broken and I had a choice to whether or not I was going to stay that way. I choose to "pick up my pieces" and build my beautiful mosaic not an easy decision and a decision I have to make everyday.
This is where you come in, it was not till I had this epiphany that I understood, it was through helping others and being honest facing the things I ran from, was I ever going to be whole. We are in this together. I am no where healed and perfected but I am closer. This is my honest journey and I hope that through my vulnerability I can help others heal too. You are NOT BROKEN (well maybe a little... but THATS ok!) you are creating your BEAUTIFUL MOSAIC.